Sunday, January 16, 2011

The Definiton of an unsung melody

i rarely do this so here it goes:



There is a sweet and genuine voice inside my head.
i cant find another reason why this voice keeps on playing in my head
and it never fails to keep me from having a bad day.

Night falls down, thunder roars up, but when i hear this sweet like voice joined with a sweet scented strawberry smell. it never fails to put up a genuine smile.

There is a sweet image inside my head this smile that i could not forget, or i think i will never ever forget, such a lovely smile that makes every inch of my body turn upside down in a time where i usually glares upon this dreamlike smile. a feeling of enlightment and catechizes God from why would he even bring up this wonderful smile in time of my despair.

do i need her smile?

yes, i just love to stare at her genuine smile.

it sounds like a mediocre when i will say it has made up my day, but im telling you that smile flourishes up the dark smug in my heart of which has been damaged by every thorns and spikes that inflicted it.

Thorns.
Spikes.

I cannot give these unprepossessing words to define her or rather the deep thought i have for.

There is this person..

A human Female..

She is a treasure that is worth a thousand image.

more like

more expensive than facebook?

more expensive than Oprah?

why would i even use the word expensive if she is worth the endless universe.

A treasure from the stars above, a treasure from the ocean below.

she is amusing.
she is lovely.
she is extraordinary.
she is a reason.
no she is not just that.

why cant i put the exact words from every words i put at?

why?

i dont know, thats the question.

If i will go to Greece.

and ask this Greek goddess.

such question about tis deep feeling.

maybe she will shrug and say nothing.

cause even that Goddess cant define this.


The universe is endless, no one can define its vast space in the continuum.

She is a Universe, when you stare and glare upon it,

you will murmur slowly

stumble helplessly

think deeply.

I dont know anymore what is happening with me but im sure liking it.

maybe i could write a book
maybe i could write a song
maybe i could write a poem
maybe i could make film

but know this, it doesn't even meet you.

like an equinox

i dont understand such word

this melody of unsung words is not even close to what im feeling now, cause so much

so much

so much

of this.

i cant even define it.

Let me hug you and tomorrow
I may die.
Let me Kiss you and tomorrow
God may take me.
Let me Love you and tomorrow
and let forever be the word that would come from you
and now i can freely express this unsung melody in my heart.

you are so amusing, you just don't know that yet. i think.


Sunday, January 9, 2011

I maybe dead by now


God.




i guess you are watching me through Google earth.

you failed man.


you almost killed me the other night, sorry man.

what? cut the breaks from my car? yeah i saw that.


you almost killed me the other day, sorry man.

what? chased by an angry dog? i saw that.




i know you wanted to say something to me just for a short time,


on


how much i have been a careless son of a b***h

how much i have been an arrogant little b*****d

how much i have been a stinking little freak

how much i have been an impotent little boy

how much i have been careless of the words i choose

how much annoyingly i act in front of the people

how much i f*ck up most of the time

how much i became selfish

how much i became a creep

how much i became a worthless r*dnec*

how much i look like a total douche bag

how much i fail a couple of times

how much i always get burned

how much i begin to feel less like a moron

how much i begin to be a complete retard on all such things.

how much i look absurd to the people i know

how much i look stupid

how much i have been an A**hole

how much am i?

do i cost a lot to you?

am i doing enough?

come on god, if you're reading my blog you might have clenched out my heart and put me to rest.

i know you've got plans for me.

and i must say...


err.. never mind.


PS: God you're awesome. you know im kidding.