I maybe dead by now

God.

i guess you are watching me through Google earth.

you failed man.

you almost killed me the other night, sorry man.

what? cut the breaks from my car? yeah i saw that.

you almost killed me the other day, sorry man.

what? chased by an angry dog? i saw that.

i know you wanted to say something to me just for a short time,

on

how much i have been a careless son of a b***h

how much i have been an arrogant little b*****d

how much i have been a stinking little freak

how much i have been an impotent little boy

how much i have been careless of the words i choose

how much annoyingly i act in front of the people

how much i f*ck up most of the time

how much i became selfish

how much i became a creep

how much i became a worthless r*dnec*

how much i look like a total douche bag

how much i fail a couple of times

how much i always get burned

how much i begin to feel less like a moron

how much i begin to be a complete retard on all such things.

how much i look absurd to the people i know

how much i look stupid

how much i have been an A**hole

how much am i?

do i cost a lot to you?

am i doing enough?

come on god, if you're reading my blog you might have clenched out my heart and put me to rest.

i know you've got plans for me.

and i must say...

err.. never mind.

PS: God you're awesome. you know im kidding.