Blank Thoughts of Despair

and this is how despair had caught my eyes.

The world is facing the debt of unimaginable despair.

We succumb into the bits of decay.

How i wonder what did I do to feel this shit. I begin to struck myself with undeniable sadness and betray.

I want to do something before the world ends.

I want to be happy... and go out to the world with beautiful landscapes and wonderful sites.

I'm still young i dont want to die young.

there are some things that i want to do,

like travel, laugh, learn, write, and love..

oh joy to make those things before i die.

I want to travel around the world.

to Palawan

to Rome

to New Zealand

to Japan

to Hollywood

to Singapore

to Australia

to Vegas

to Spain

to Iceland

to England

to Paris

the beautiful Paris.. where i can eat and sleep and view the Eiffel tower with someone.

I want to laugh until i drop on the floor.

until my guts spill out of the floor.

until my eyes spurt out.

until my lungs dry out.

until i fall so hard and hit me with a coma.

I want to Learn more until i get crazy.

I want to learn how to play the saxophone

I want to learn how to play the piano.

I want to learn how to play the trumpet.

I want to learn how to swim.

I want to learn the Lawyer's way.

I want to learn how to read peoples face.

I want to learn how to love someone more.

I want to learn almost anything.

Write. yeah right. I really want to write.

I want to write something scary.

I want to write something funny.

I want to write something weird.

I want to write something...

something that will be famous and will keep up with the best books in TIME magazine.

I want to love.

I want to love more.

I want to love my family.

I want to love my mom.

I want to love my dad.

I want to love my brother.

I want to love my sister.

I want to love my grandmother.

I want to love my friends.

I want to love someone.

someone close to my heart.

someone that i really love.

someone like her.

thus.

give her love that she needs.

give her love that she wants.

give her love that i want to give her.

love that will make her smile.

love that will make her laugh.

love that will make her strong.

love that will make her up and shine.

she deserves a love that is unimaginable.

a love that she will cherish forever.

now.

before the world ends. I want to do those things.

let this blank thoughts of despair begin to vanish.

let me enjoy my life.

let me enjoy it.